I am a ghost...

I know I said I would come back to this blog, well I guess I lied.  I have become one of those people I promised not to become.  I work and go to school.  I never really have time to make beads anymore because when I have free time, I just want to veg out.  I hope to change that.  I need to get back to art.  Working and writing papers is just not very enjoyable.  I want to make things and improve as I go.  Things really have to change.

Why I Quit Facebook...

Facebook reminds me of a fake suburb where everything is positive and no one voices their real feelings.  People you know in real life act totally different on Facebook.  You wonder when you are reading their posts, who is this person?  I feel like I can never express my real feelings or people will drop me as a friend.  Do I care?  I don't want to but something deep inside me does care.  I never feel comfortable expressing who I really am on there.  Why have a place to write if you can't write what you really want to?  Another thing that pisses me off about Fakebook is the fact that people will write that they drank a beer at a bar with their zillion and one friends and they get 100 likes and if I post a picture of a bead I made, I will be lucky to get a couple likes.  I was creative and made something and the other person drank a beer.  If this is how shallow people have become, this makes me sad.  I really don't care to see pictures people take of themselves in their different sunglasses and different poses.  Also, please stop it with the cell phone in front of the mirror picture, it is cheezy and no one really cares to see it even though you think so.

And yes I will post some beads and art eventually but I just felt like bitching.  I miss that people quit blogging and jumped on fakebook.  I used to enjoy reading Sarah Hornik's blog but she doesn't blog much anymore unfortunately.  I am back and I intend to stay this time.

I am still alive...

I know I haven't updated this blog in like forever.  Hopefully I will start making beads again so I will have some pics to post.  Please check back soon.  I may get back to the torch this weekend.

Some New Beads on Etsy

I have been torching lately and have been adding some beads to my Etsy shop.  I played around with ivory yesterday and made these wonderful beads.  They have been lightly etched.

Etsy, views, and feeling nonexistent...

What is up with Etsy views?  Is it just me or what?  My views are so far down it is not funny.  I feel like I am alone out here anymore.  I went away for 2 years and now I have to start all over again.  It is so discouraging.  I was so proud of the beads I recently made but that excitement has been short lived.  How does one stay motivated to keep up with this thing if no one even looks at your stuff?  Has the cheap China beads finally won out over the handmade beads.  Should I stick some young people in my basement and force them to make beads for $1 a day so I can batch list on Etsy?  How does anyone survive anymore.  Maybe I should go back to the nursing books and scrap the beads.  :(  So, so discouraging.

A dreadlock bead for the road...

Well, here it is October and I am back to melting glass...

One night I went to work at Target and decided that I was fed up with it. On a whim and without even telling my husband, I put in my 2 weeks notice. Yes, we needed the income but working 4 nights a week, including every Saturday, was really getting to me and the human resource witch refused to let me change my availability. She even had the nerve to change it without even asking me. It only amounted to about $800 a month in income. It was a joke, It wasn't helping me toward my goal of being a nurse. Luckily, I applied at a hospital and I got a job as a patient companion so I will be working to help my career as a nurse. I don't start the new job until November 7th so until then I will be working on some beads. I am so done with working for retail jobs and I don't recommend it to anyone. They treat you like a day laborer warm body and they only give you single digit raises for working your butt off and walking around during the day like zombies because you work every night and never get any sleep. I don't understand how people can stay there for so long, it just isn't worth it.

So, now onto beads. I decided to try some different beads, not just slider/big-hole beads, but tube beads, baking soda beads and some spacers here and there. Since I can make my own schedule at the hospital, I will be making beads more regularly and don't plan to stop for long periods of time like I have in the past.

Back to Sculpting

This is the first guy I have finished since starting back to sculpting. I made his eyes from soda lime glass.